what, where, when why how…
no stop that
i voted for girugamesh today because they were 3rd and i was like what
I am really surprised right now girugamesh were in the lead by quite a number of votes, but then DIV came up and I am here like “OH”.
yeah i was surprised when i saw/heard about girugamesh not being #1 earlier today :(
i don’t even want to do this anymore wtf \(・＿・)/
that being said, since i found out, i have been spending a lot of time with my friends so i haven’t had a lot of time to sort myself out yet.
i’m not the type of person to grieve in public, so like i’m sure no one can tell i’m upset.
it’s just when i’m home and alone i start feeling really shitty and even guilty for enjoying myself when i know in the back of my head that something’s wrong.
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aoi’s father passed away a couple days ago and i’m really upset for him and his sister…
I don’t know if you know exactly, but i have this ridiculous amount of emotional attachment to aoi because i’ve gotten through a lot of difficult things using all the things he’s done and said as my example. he really helped me, even if he has no idea of it.
his dad has been in and out of the hospital for a while now, and i know aoi has been keeping a really positive attitude about it all. he’s been trying so hard. i don’t know what his father was ill with, but it’s just really terrible fate. i sort of noticed aoi was visiting home more often than he used to, which is still not too often, but you know. and he was just there with his dad a couple weeks ago. so it’s kind of hard to grasp. he even posted a picture of him, and mentioned how grateful he was for everything his dad did for him. i thought it was strange, cause he’s never done anything like that before. but i guess maybe he knew? which means he’s known for a while and has just carried on and kept it to himself. i can’t imagine how hard it must be for him. he’s a good boy. he was close to his parents.
and you know, aoi’s only in his early 30s, his dad couldn’t have been too much older than 60, probably less… and his mom passed away four years ago, too. they both passed away young… it doesn’t seem fair at all. it’s so much harder to cope with that, because it just doesn’t make any sense. that and, for some reason i can’t stop thinking, what about aoi and his sister then??? with that kind of genetic history i started getting scared about their health… and especially with the kind of lifestyle aoi leads, he’s literally working all night and into the morning… it doesn’t seem healthy. and what about their kids? they’ll grow up without grandparents. and when you lose a parent, there’s just this huge feeling of lonliness, or emptiness, or idk how to describe it, but it sucks, and i don’t want him to have to go through that again.
but then i’m thinking way too much and way too negatively aren’t i??
i don’t know
it’s upsetting
i just hope he handles it okay, and i’m sure he will, and if he can be okay than i can be okay.
it’s just kind of especially difficult to know someone you care about is going through something rough and there’s pretty much not a single thing you can do.
so i don’t feel like much right now.
sorry for being so dramatic. i don’t think i’ll be around much for a while, though.
I don’t know really how to go about this but
The world is such a fucked up place
Aoi doesn’t deserve this and I’m sure his parents were the most wonderful people too, to have raised a son like that and a no doubt a lovely daughter, so they definitely didn’t deserve this either
I don’t understand why it always works this way
And I know he’s been in and out of the hospital for a while and I’ve always been worried but
God dammit
Just
Why
It’s not fair at all.
I don’t even know what to say but I’m so unhappy. I don’t know I’d I should say sad or angry or what. But I’m definitely unhappy.
At least they can be together again now. If you believe in that kind of thing. I don’t usually, but. Sometimes you just have to.
oh no…
aoi…
- Person: do you have a boyfriend?
- Me: Are you making fun of me
They dropped from third to fifth and they are so bummed that they cry at night and most of the day. But they only need 250 votes to get it back!!! Please vote and signal boost!
Signal boost. Vote from your phone and your computer!!!! DOUBLE VOTES YEAAAAAAA
if you vote for ANY OTHER GROUP I WILL KILL YOU
girugamesh and unite are obvs gonna win anyway don’t waste your time on them vote for k a m e l e o because rainbow hater blockers
They dropped from third to fifth and they are so bummed that they cry at night and most of the day. But they only need 250 votes to get it back!!! Please vote and signal boost!
what if while you were gone your cat got on your computer and blogged for you and then like when people follow you when youre gone its because your cat made a ton of funny text posts but it deleted them before you got back
what if a cat made this post
what if it was actually bears not cats that did those things
most people don’t own bears
jeez
Canadians do.
I said people
get off of the internet, cat.
